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Originally Posted by hankster
granite, why don't you do this thru your T, instead of going into a new place cold? or is this what her plan with you is? aren't you kind of acting out if you don't at least call her to let her know what you're doing?
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good question hank and as i was sitting in the room they put me in waiting for the doc i was kind of thinking the same thing wishing i had called my T instead.
it seems the more upset i get the more i completely push her and the idea of her away from me.the SEE i can deal with this myself crap .i dont need you.i think i am terrified of the fact that i may need or or heaven forbid may even just want her help.i dont want her to see that at all because i dont want her to hate me or think i am more dificult then i am.i dont want her to kick me to the curb. i guess this is why i dont want to care so much.if i didnt care i would call her.i know this all sounds stupid but that is it i think