I'm just really shy, too. Id love to join something if someone would do it with me . Lol. Catch 22. I just lose either way. I'm either a b$!ch that doesn't let my bf have friends or I'm pathetic and lonely.

I love having parties. Its really the only time people act like they like me and want to hang out with me. Im fun to party with. I don't have my own home yet, though, so that only happens when my bfs parents go away, which isn't that often.