i didnt see the face of the guy whom i've loved for about 2 years in over a month. and i suddenly got to see him multiple times in 2consecutive days. my heart ached to see him! he's still soooooo gorgeous! i fell for his brother last year(i love him still-thats another story as he also liked me too)...buher guyt its over between me and his brother now. its just that i saw this guy again and i wondered why dont i deserve him afterall..... why aint i good enough for him! i tried EVERYTHING to gain his attention. didnt matter. he only started hating me for it.

im soon to marry another guy whim i dont like but still i have to marry him because of family and customs over here. n now once again i m wondering will i ever be able to get over my crush completely!

thanks for reading. i needed to get it out.