Crystal, hi. TY. Still have not done any EMDR but the plan is to. Still making sure everything's in place. Had a protector blocking today who still isn't sure what to expect. He keeps saying he needs to stay one step ahead of T.
We've been with this T for more than 5 yrs. He trains other therapists to do EMDR, gives seminars etc, does EMDR with his own clients too; but has never done it with us yet due to the dissociation. He consults with Sandra Paulsen (who specailizes in EMDR with dissociative clients). She has a book out if anyone is interested.

There is bad things around my/our conception or whoever was in the conceptive sac - according to some insiders and what a Protector says. T talked about re-parenting today and giving the part that was conceived what it needed instead of the opposite. Maybe that has something to do with the conception part of the equation????

I don't understand everything going on in therapy these days as i am only partially there, like seeing and hearing everything from underwater. At least, that's what it feels like at the end when T is bringing me back - like i come up out of water. And i can't move for a bit. Some parts i miss entirely.

My T says the same as you about the EMDR. He thinks it can help but he knows we, as a system, have to be ready.
Thanks for sharing about your expereinces. Those who manage the life have agreed along with me to try it.
take care,
SG