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Originally Posted by Perna
That your T suspected what now the NPdoc has pretty much confirmed, it has to feel weird and like you are being left out? It's a bit like walking into a surprise party isn't it? Takes a little bit of time to process what is happening and how all your friends of 25 years were contacted behind your back, etc.?
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It feels like I've had a piece of food stuck in my teeth. Most people don't get close enough to see it, or maybe they do but they don't understand what it is. But my therapist has seen it all along and didn't tell me until someone else was brave enough to say something about it first. I thought it was her job to tell me stuff like this. But now I'm realizing she was helping me deal with the discomfort, which is more in her purview.
So I don't feel mad or betrayed. And I'm starting to understand why she's held on to me so long even though I haven't met the criteria for depression in a long time. Maybe it was good that I had two weeks to digest everything on my own.
She emailed me today out of the blue. That cheered me up and made me feel okay.