Lost, Ive been following what you posted today. I understand your confusion, pain, and appreciation. I also hear a voice that is unsettled and wants to make you a stronger, more self-sufficient person. I know you decided on a two-week trial, but maybe it would be a good idea to go for the program you wrote about. It seems like a change would do you well and give you a chance to learn new coping mechanisms and then you could return to work with your T revitalized and able to be more settled.