some of us DO need more from our T's. i've been trying to get it since I was in my early 20's, but the rules were different then, and my current T wasn't even a T. My T told me last week he is very invested in me. I don't think it's anything we need to feel guilty about. Like when you do your EMT work - some runs will be easy, some will require more of you. You will probably find the more demanding runs to be more fulfilling too, just as I think our T's do.