Just having a little pity party. I've been kind of in a rut lately with the "Why the hell do I have to go through this; Why do I have to be crazy?" I just am feeling really down, feeling like a freak, and knowing that although meds help control my symptoms, they arn't a cure. I'm always going to be f'ed up and my only option is to learn how to live knowing that I'm a freak for life.