Hi Frank. I am so afraid of what my friends think of me. I was recently diagnosed bipolar and now everyone sees me so differently and I dont know why, or if its bad or good or what. Then one friend completely cuts off and I havent heard from her since and I dont know if its because of this bipolar thing. Then my sister stopped talking to me and told me Im a druggy who cant deal with life and Im not bipolar, I only take my meds but now Im a druggy? Then my best friend in the whole world has been weird. I dont know if its me or him or what. ITs hard to not worry about what they think. You want to have friends and be normal. But I feel like Im not normal so I have to do what it takes to keep the crappy friends Ive got. But then I finally stand up for myself and things got bad by losing friends better but now theyre better cause Im better off without them. Its just really lonely at times. But I know a lot of the times you're worried about what theyre thinking, nothings wrong, youre worrying for no reason. I get so paraniod over nothing. So good luck with your friends. Try not to worry too much of what they think, which I know is hard. Counseling does help, I know for me its helped my self esteem a lot. I got pretty bad for awhile.