Hope this doesn't trigger anyone, that's why I put the little icon up.

The same thing happened to me, the 4th day I was on Lamictal. As depressed and f'ed up as I was, I wasn't ordinarily suicidal; but one night my youngest son and I had this enormous fight and he decided to shut the phone off and ignore me. In my highly-charged state, I thought he was totally turning his back on me and I just lost it. My poor husband held me and let me cry and rage, which was a good thing because I had a bottle of Ativan that I was about to eat, just because my heart was broken and life wasn't worth living if my son shut me out of his.

It was so bad that I even texted my other kids and told them I was thinking about doing it. What a s****y thing to do to your adult children.....Even as I was texting them I realized that I really didn't want to die, I only wanted the pain to stop. I don't know if they'll ever understand that. But it's never been that bad again.