Oh... And if it is any consolation (ie if it helps you feel more normal...) I tend to have some sexual feelings to male clinicians. In fact... I've heard that it is fairly common for people to have homosexual / lesbian sexual feelings for clinicians too even when the person isn't homosexually / lesbian inclined outside therapy.

Having fantasies doesn't mean you would actually want that to happen IRL...

I mean... People fantasise about people off tv and porn stars and stuff... doesn't mean they would actually want sex with them IRL. fantasy is different...