..I'm glad you feel better Blue, thats a scary situation for you as a mum yep. I was a nightmare for my mum when I was doing the same sort of thing and living in here home and I just don't know how she coped?....I was all over the place and such an a.s.shole! no-one knew what the heck was wrong or what to do?

I really don't know how she coped or has continued to? I think somehow she just knew what her limits were and to keep herself safe. It took way too long for me to realise how much she was there for me and I know things were different twenty something years ago but I still think you mums are amazing!!

I hope you will be ok Blue...