Ok, so I'm bored out of my mind. I always feel so damn lonely. I'm cranky all the time. Ahhh. But most of all my husband bugs the crap out of me. Its all about him. Do what he wants, take care of him. It gets old. I want attention. Im totally in one of those moods right now. Sometimes it feels like he doesnt accept who I am. Like he pretends Im not bipolar. I'll be in a total "mood" and I'll tell him and yet he still yells at me and asks me what the hell is wrong with me? Uhh, duh. I think we already know. Sometimes I just want to be alone. I have such a hard time with him. Even my therapist asked if I thought my life might be a lot easier if I wasn't married to him. I don't think she likes him. I dont blame her. He's screwed up pretty bad in the past. He's doing WAY better, but sometimes its really hard. I just dont know what to do sometimes. He doesn't get me and I don't get him. Sometimes I just wonder why he just sat there while I mentally fell apart. For four years, I was just gone. I got worse and worse and he just sat there and did nothing and at times made it way worse. I just wish I could just forget most of the past four years and start over. Man Im in a bad mood. Does anybody else have days like this?