Hi, thanks for the replies,

I went through it with my psychiatrist and she was able to clarify a lot of things, like the low self esteem and worthlessness that somebody like me who suffered physical and emotional abuse for a lot of years will feel, and also a sense of being responsible for everything.

As it turns out there isn't a great deal to feel guilty for, I mean a couple of things (Like stealing from my boss, but that was 12 years ago) that I need to go back and set right but mostly nothing more than the mistakes a reasonably normal 38year old guy would make going through his life.

I did feel a lot of shame and remorse about a relationship I had where I didn't behave so well, but the woman was a bit of a bully and after 12 years of that I was bound to act out a bit, I said goodbye to her last year, and will help her out where I can, I think we're both still trying to understand what happened.

S