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Originally Posted by Dreamscaper
Looking for an opinion on this, it was brought up to me that I may have multiple personality disorder, primarily after writing something that I have next to no recollection of writing and being written directed at me in the third person via my account. It's not the first time it's happened, I also found a letter I apparently wrote myself after a particularly traumatic event that, while barely legible, was definitely my handwriting despite having no memory of anything the letter described, in this case it was the 'death' of my predecessor which sorta made sense to me but I was obviously alive still and had memories of what happened even if they were distant.
Now I have had other 'personalities' running around in my head for awhile, but I always thought it was my OCD kicking in and reorganizing myself so that I can cram all of one emotion in one definitive shape so that the majority of me can carry on and live normally. I also think that maybe they are just areas where I end up being emotionally unstable and seeing them like I do is an aid in trying to live. Then again I end up writing letters to different parts of myself and have occassional dissassociative episodes. I also tend to think, as someone who enjoys writing fantasy, that the idea is fantastic enough that I'm certainly making it up, but that would also make me one of my characters in a world I did not create, at least I think I didn't. I also have had depression deep enough to induce psychosis so maybe I'm stuck in a psychotic episode and it'll all clear up for awhile afterward.
From what I can identify there are 5 of us. 4 are definitive, 1 is more like a mist that only rarely takes control and when it does it is very brief before failing in the struggle for control. I don't know if descriptions of the parts would help or not.
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If you have a treatment provider and have been diagnosed with ocd and depression but now think it might be more than just that. I think it would help if you share your concerns with you therapist. Not all therapist are familiar with the symptoms of MPD/DID. If you don't have a treatment provider I think it would be important to find one. When I was diagnosed I was in treatment. It was difficult to accept but my therapist helped me navigate the emotions related to my DID. Hope everything works out for you.