Why am I only hearing about this NOW??!! Okay, so maybe it happened before we knew each other

Step 1. Reply to it, saying you got it by mistake, then delete all copies of it on your side, in your trash, your sent box, everywhere, so you can never look at it again, because you know you will if you can.

2. your email should elicit a phone call of apology. if it doesn't, call T (give them a few hours) and yell at them.

3. keep talking about it (they should give you some free extra sessions - this is their *****, not yours). They should see someone too.

4. Get a consult, someone you trust. I asked 3 people, my former t/pdoc, a good friend who is a counselor (Masters degree), and my MD neighbor I sometimes shrink-rap with. They all just asked, was he helping you, and do you think he can keep helping you? These are the ONLY people I talked to about it, which is surprising, given my usual big mouth.

5. During this whole time, I felt like I was hyper-aware, like of my feelings? I certainly didn't snooze during sessions. I interrupted him as often as I wanted, if he started yakking about a phase of it that was irrelevant to me.

6. and now that it's a year later, I think we need to revisit it. I need to ask the questions I was afraid to ask last year.

But I have totally no regrets about it. I wouldn't have come looking for PC if not for his errant email, and PC has been the best frickin thing that ever happened to me. And it brought me closer to T. So it turned out pretty darn good. Plus it was a well-written email, he got points for that!