I'm really stressing over all this. I applied for both APTD and SSDI at the end of April of this year. The state in their infinite wisdom and inability to READ what was sent to them from my doctors offices has put me really behind in getting an answer to the APTD part. SWINES!!!

For the SSDI part, I now have 2 appointments in two weeks. One with a medical doctor to check on my physical inabilities and a psych eval with a psychiatrist. I've never had one of those and I'm a bit nerved up over it.

Any suggestions to give me an idea of the best way to approach these two appointments would be greatly appreciated!

In the mean time, I have no income still (since the end of March). I only have emergency food stamps, which of course is a big help, don't get me wrong I really appreciate them.

I worked hard all my life, sometimes 2 and 3 jobs at a time to keep myself afloat and a roof over my kids head and food in their stomachs. I never applied for any welfare when they were young, I just worked my butt off and had good friends who helped along the way. Now, I feel like I'm not pulling my weight and I'm sure I won't be approved because they will think I'm lazy and just don't want to work anymore. I keep trying to keep those feelings and thoughts at bay, but it's getting harder everyday.

I hate this hurry up and wait crap.