Oh, I guess the big motivator for me is that I LOVE to prove people wrong. I got the biggest thrill out of going to the psychiatrist who had me sectioned twice and who told me that I was going to be incurably, chronically seriously ill for my entire life and probably on the disability allowance and in state care . . . And just giving it to him, listing all the amazing stuff I'd done once I had escaped from him. I expected him to be humbled, but he wasn't, he just warned of future crashes even bigger than before and called me possibly manic