effed up even more royally this morning. I called him. I actually called him.

He proceeded to tell me it was a number of things over the past several months that caused his feelings to change.

-Me not working (I quit due to having some back problems due to pregnancy)
- The house not being spotless
- Our sex life not being as fulfilling (We had sex a lot, even when I was uncomfortable, but I guess it just wasn't porno-quality)
- I hurt his feelings a couple of times (and even though I apologized profusely, I guess he never really fully forgave me)

He threw the d word at me in April, but agreed to work on us and told me it was just the house being cluttered that was getting to him.
I worked on all that I could
In June, he dumps me for good.

He said that those things made space between us and it can't be fixed.

He has no feelings for me left. But he asks me if I've went out on any dates? Why would it matter? lol

I told him I missed him and he told me to not say stuff like that because it just hurts me more. HE told me there are times he misses me but that's just it.
He just said he feels he was too young and that "us" just isn't fixable.



Game over, I guess. I am so angry with myself.