I am Bipolar 1 with Psychotic Ideations and I am not a success story. My life is messed up and always will be since my BP1 goes into heavy hard manic episodes and there is just no way to hide the stigma that I am. I misunderstand
left and right and my ideations get me into trouble especially with my wife. Sure medications help, but in my case I need to be heavily medicated to be able to go out into society without causing any trouble and also chaperoned by my wife or someone trustworthy.

It's not that I am a kid or act like one at 56, but I can get into an altercation with someone who disagrees with me when I am manic. So in other words, I am too darn bipolar 1 to be left alone for too long. If I go out a the house in a bad mood, and someone out there starts to stare at me, then I can stare back like I did this morning. But thinking back on it playing it over in my mind, I now realize he meant me no harm and it was I being the aggressors.

This is what being bipolar 1 w/ psychotic Ideation is for me. Of course there are varied degrees and intensities as differences where bipolar 1 is concerned But I am only relating here my personal experience and diagnoses and not suggesting a model for everyone. What do others here understand about this and please share your experiences, thanks.