I have been in therapy, on and off, for six years now. The most recent round has been three years of psychoanalysis, but in the past I had over a two years of CBT also. Both have done **** all, i.e., they have given me no insights that I didn't already have.

Current T is a nice man and he does keep me going, but I don't want to be just dragged along through my life. I'm tired of that, and I'm tired of being in terrible pain all the time.

Thing is, the way I think about the world is so incredibly different from the norm that I just don't know where to go for different help. All the self-help books I read seem *nice*, but they also seem like they're written for a completely different species. I just can't access the way they work/view the world, somehow. It has been the same for therapy thus far.

It's just . . . I don't know what else to do. I'm beginning to believe there are so few people who experience the world the way I do that there is no help out there for me.