Hi Everyone,
So the best news is, I got aprooved for medicade already! Yay! So nice to get a mesage on my voicemail at home about that from the woman in charge of that sort of thing here where I live. I should be getting my card in the mail any day now.
This means that soon several things can happen. The people at my current day program can look into that van that can supposedly bring me there and back to my house for free. The social worker at my home facility can probably get more information out of the closer programs, just for curiosity about how they're different from what I'm doing now and in case I ever want to switch after this quarter (in the beginning of October.) I can also get a psychiatrist, yay!
Also, today I went to the tuesday groups at program all excited. I was kind of disappointed in them. There was anger management first, which I don't think I need. I think I need "how to express your anger instead of holding it in and then self-harming" group. The way they did the group just wasn't for me.
Then there was an open support group, which I liked. I particularly liked the woman who runs it. The staff overall are very nice, but it seems that the staff I really really like are program directors and only run one group! Oh well.
Then was health and wellness. This guy came up to the front of the room and said today we would be talking about "different kinds of sweetener" (maple syrup, molasis, honey, artifical). I walked out shortly after. You're allowed to do that as long as you don't you know d disturb anyone. Somehow I couldn't believe they'd spend a whole hour on just that topic. Very strange.
For the rest of the day I kind of zoned. I was just kind of down. I guess it was something to do with thinking about how I could have been seeing that intern that has a tuesday opening instead of sitting in a room by myself reading while there was a group on maple syrup going on!
Ther e was a self-esteem group, but I ended up missing it.
This made me think that since I was so off the mark thinking that tuesday groups would be great, and friday groups would be bad (just by reading about them) maybe I'd try Friday and see what I think. And switch out tuesday for Friday, so I could see that intern!
I'm pritty sure this is what I'll do. I see the intern tomorrow, she leads a free support group I've been going to.
I have called other therapy places, and found several excellent choices if only I could pay $30. This intern I have in mind I believe could go to $5 which would be ideal for me at this point. The six dollars per trip to go anywhere on disability transit takes a lot out of my very limited funds.
But interesting to see all these different places and how they work. Lower fee counseling is certainly in demand in general though. Two places I called said there'd be a three week wait, either for just an intake or to see a therapist. And they recently cut six mental health clinics in Chicago and felt this was ok? Don't get me started!
Day off tomorrow, nice. And thursday. So I'll be around.
Thanks for listening.