I don't hate you.....honesty is exactly what I need to hear. I agree that my sister is not ready, never was since the day she discovered she was pregnant. When she discovered she was pregnant there was 5 possibilities of who the father could be, and she told many other boys they could be possibilities, for attention I guess.

During her pregnancy she did become very motherly and settled down big time. She stayed home all during her pregnancy and quit smoking, partying, and drinking. But a few weeks after the baby was born she was already becoming promiscuous (without birth control), and was already leaving the baby with mom and I so she could go out with her friends and party all night. I was really fooled, I really though she would do well and for the most part I was right, she does care for him and he's never neglected, but she acts as though he's a burden to her and gets frustrated easy.....so that's her excuse to go out at least. She claims "I do it alone", but she has much more help with Elijah then I do with my kids...much much more.

I don't know what's best anymore, I know here is not a possibility. I wish I could. It's not only my husband who's made it that way, but my own illnesses, my lows, that seem to show it's ugly face 2/3 times a month. It's hard enough to care for my babies when I'm in them....actually to be honest I hardly take care of them....they just lay on me while I lay on the couch.

I've given this so much though that I exhausted myself. I burned myself out on it and now I am letting Mom and Dana figure out for themselves, I love my nephew, believe me. I know ultimately he will be safe and cared for.....unfortunately not every single child has the luxury of a happy go lucky, skippidy do da life. I wouldn't be able to provide him that either.

I'm sorry, I probably should have waited to reply to this post because right now I'm an emotional mess just waiting to happen....so sorry.