I'm sorry guys. I'm always so confusing, I can be here during the morning and be happy and joke and play. Then later in the day I'm a wreck. I hate that, it bothers me.

Right now I'm a little disappointed about my sister leaving tomorrow to go move to Washington D.C with her boyfriend. She's taking my nephew along with her. I'm sad that she's leaving because she's my only friend (even though she can be a witch), she's all I have. I'll miss seeing my nephew grow up as well...that really hurts because I wanted to be a large factor in his life.

I'm also jealous about my Mom reaching out so far to do do do for Dana and the baby. When I had my baby my mom never once thought about moving to York, PA, where I was living at the time. My mom is going to alter and sacrifice her whole life to move to Washington to be with Dana. My kids and I are going to be here alone....no friends....no family. When I leave this house if I'm not at Wal Mart I'm at my mom's, that's it. So I guess Wal mart will be my only world.

Makes me mad Mom wouldn't stay here for me and my kids. It also makes me mad that she watches Elijah almost every single day and she has never once watched my kids. Then when I'm over there all she does is complain how my kids get into everything.

I'm feeling so low right now, I feel like I'm being abandoned. I came here to this %#@&#! hole state to be with them and now they're leaving me here. Ticks me off.