Probably nothing. I think I'm trying to block out my strong feelings about the way she acted with me today. I'm also extremely tired. I had a busy day and forced myself to go out at night. I'm exhausted and feel like I can barely stand up. I'm going to bed very soon but I don't want to because I don't want to cry more. I'm sad because I wish T could comfort me. I wish she would have held my hand. She would have if I had asked her. Or maybe I did ask her. I don't know what happened but I feel like she wasn't there for me the way I wanted. It feels like NEED, though. Not want, but need.