I am a 28 year old male who has depression, bipolar and social anxiety disorder. My parents were missionaries when I was a kid and we moved to Venezuela, South America when I was 13. One of my school mates was a girl named Lydia who I immediately grew close to and our friendship grew deeper after we both moved back to the US and graduated high school. We were both sexually abused as kids so we have a certain degree of emotional brokeness. After I went and spent a weekend with her and her family in Pittsburgh for her brother's wedding I finally allowed myself to fall in love with her. Through my faith and spiritual healing by the hands of God I have taken big steps in recovery from the emotional wounds of my childhood. I feel that Lydia has not experienced such healing. She goes from guy to guy looking for a sense of belonging. She will always be one of my best friends but it feels weird to have fallen in love and then fall out of love with someone. Her boyfriend won't allow her to call me and she lives out of state so I have no contact with her. I have made my feelings known to her and she said that at one point in time she felt the same for me but we have both moved on. Now I have no desire to be in a relationship with another girl because the emotional highs and lows were just to much for my body, my brain and my heart. Being bipolar I try to avoid experiences that trigger emotional highs and lows. Are these feelings or fear of relationships something that you have experienced if you are bipolar? How did you overcome them? Any feedback is greatly appreciated. Thanks. Cheers.