kyangel, I'm so sorry you had to grow up in an emotionally abusive family. I grew up in a similar environment, and even though I'm in my 50s and they've all been gone for over 20 years, I'm still battling the effects. I'm morbidly obese (over 300 lbs.) and have permanent emotional scars in addition to being bipolar. But I also have a strong faith in God and a wonderful support system which includes possibly the world's most awesome psychiatrist, so I get by and try to pay forward any blessings that I receive.

Welcome, my friend, and may you find some friendship and comfort here.