Yip, agreed. Too many eggs, you gotta handle them 1 by 1. Bit of r/s advice, going forward, please, PLEASE do N0T invest more than your payout. Its ultimately not worth it (obviously) and losing yourself is MUCH too high a price to EVER pay, what would your gf want with you anyway if you were missing, gone, lost in the relationship? Who knows, maybe thats why she's being so indifferent to you, she probably hardly recognizes you... Also, your gf is a person, and should be treated as such, not a god to be worshipped, idolized or whatever, if, IF you break up, you CAN/WILL survive it, IF you CHOOSE to. Remember, she is not your oxygen, treating her as such is not only UNHEALTHY, its burdonsome for her. Bcoz you hold her to a higher standard than mere mortals, you hold her ransom for your happiness, when your happines is YOUR responsibility. She's a person, a flawed 1 just like the rest of us. didn't mean to ramble, good to have you aboard, hope you like it/us here! And hope you manage to derail the spiral