Have any of you ever said something embarassing, something you could not say in session with the hand on the " door knob"... so to speak.
I think I made a door knob move myself when I terminated T. I had a difficult time talking about my feelings and also denying the fact, all through therapy, that I needed a mother or a caring mother figure as a child. ...Like everything was fine growing up blah blah blah on my part. T tried to get me to realise that every child needs a mother ( or another caring adult, love and care.
Of course I knew this deep inside but I have never had a mother and have lived all my life denying the fact that this were a problem for me and this is where some of my problems rises from.
After paying T on our termination session I just felt a need to say something emotional. So I said thank you for hugging me all along and be the women to teach me that touch and caring is good. It has made my life so much easier outside of sessions. Then we said goodbye.
I donīt know if she would see this as a door knob move ( as it was important for me to realise that I did need this and something we should have talked more about as I should have been able to talk about in session) Or she would think I was just paying her a compliment and saying thank you?
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