Thanks guys. I have considered BPD briefly before and I've looked at the criteria list several times but I don't feel like I fit, and my SI was never very severe. Anyways, bipolar was just running through my thoughts because I was feeling frustrated at all the irrationality. Shouldn't be that much of an issue...

A very large part of me is saying that everything is fine and that this is just a phase of adolescence or something. Only a very tiny part of me thinks that something is wrong.