You can do this. I know how you feel. I just started going to metings again (after 4 years and several moves). A support system is a huge part of our system and now that you've moved away from friends you need one more than ever. Find a therapist. I know it's hard to start all over again with that (my hubby is military so I've gone through quite a few T's), but you NEED one. They will also have a list of local AA meetings. So will many pastors. OUR LIVES ARE UNMANAGEABLE WITHOUT HELP. If your sobriety is important to you, you know what has to be done. Please let us know how it goes. And a lot of libraries/churches have an AA big book. Read it. Remember why you need this.