I just thought I'd poke my head in and say I'm still here. Saw my T yesterday. I finally really opened up about a lot of things I've been holding on to lately. She did really good at not acting freaked out, although I know she was a little. I thinks it's the first time a T has seriously thought about having me locked up. I've assured her that my belief in God (and meds) is not going anywhere though, and since that and meds keep me grounded (even if they are the only thing keeping me grounded), I won't hurt myself or others. I promised her for the next week definitely, I won't do anything crazy stupid. She knows that I have a hard time lying to people and won't directly lie to her (especially when I was caught up in a rant of honesty) so I think I eased her fears (at least a little, she let me out of her office). I just feel really confused right now, and meds are making it hard to organize my thoughts and analyze what I'm feeling or thinking.
Anyway, yeah, here, and not going to harm anyone.