i know that feeling of emotional heaviness you're talking about. it's horrible. i'm not sure what you can do. i know that when i go to sessions i start off being bright and bubbly, maybe because i'm glad the session is finally here and because i like T but maybe if both of us were to spend 15 minutes before the session thinking about emotional things then we'd be closer to expressing them by the time we get into the room? i dunno. i might try doing that and see what happens.