That's how it's supposed to work - the T represents the person(s) you have unresolved anger towards, ie your enemy. The idea is, if you can consciously access and "process" those thoughts and feelings in T, you can release their hold on you, and then they won't unconsciously drive your actions IRL.

But of course you know that. We all KNOW that. Still I spent over 20 years yelling at, not working with, my T's.

You said you liked having pneumonia. It sounded like you got some alone time? No offense, but is your partner a good r/s for you, or is there stress? Are you getting put down, made to feel less than? I am asking cos that's how my mother made me feel, that's the kind of r/s I got in, and T only worked when I left my mother and any r/s. (there were overlaps with my t's and r/s, if I remember my ancient history )