Our T's are used to hearing people's stories. It is not there place to judge. My T says tell me, what ever you need to tell me is up to you and you live with that. I get to go home at the end of the day. I'm trained for it not to impact me. But I will help you to the best of my ability to with your life situations.

I to am in trauma T. It is so so difficult. I was raped and continued for 9 months to stay and take this from this guy. So I must have liked it right, WRONG, I must have asked for it right,WRONG, I concented, I returned, I stayed, but after trauma T I begin to realize I was not a bad person, I did not deserve this and I did not ask for this. After I said something in T I had nightmares, I had panic attacks, I cryed alot, and I just could not keep thoughts from popping up about this from time to time. It was like flashbacks. God who knew this would happen. I told the T what was happening and she told me to come back in. We would put coping mechanisims in place. We decided things were to tramatic and we would revisit this again at a later date. So great a trauma T tells me my trauma is to big to handle. Any time the after affects of the trauma become to much to handle I let her know. And she gets me in ASAP.

I know this is about you not about me. I do know how you feel and what you are going threw. I wish there was something I could do to take away your pain. I cannot, I know that. But I can listen, I can relate and most importantly I can pray for you. I can pray that god would give you the strength to accept the truth and to deal with the truth. I will pray that he bring you peace of mind durring this difficult time. I will pray that you give your concern to him and let him carry your burden. God knew about this before you said it out loud. He was there when what ever it was happened so he knows and loves you reguardless. YOU LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO PRAY THIS FOR YOU. You can pray this yourself or so you want be alone the bible says where two or more are gathered I am in there midst. If you and I are together in thought then that is close enough.

I will not pray this with out the go ahead from you because I do not want to overstep my religious bounds. You can believe what you'd like and I the same. But just know that it could help. Often if we can't pray for ourselves (I can't always) others can do it for us. I often ask will you pray for me from people I know who have that connection. You can pray what I said above if you are to mentally exausted to come up with the words your self (I've been there) Or let me know. A simple YES. I'll know what you need. I hope this helps you feel better.