Hi Rainbow,
Sorry you had a rough session. It sounded very productive though and like you got a lot of good work done. Good job!
If I were you I would be struggling just as much. It's very difficult for me to comfort myself, so I would struggle with my therapist not sitting next to me holding my hand ETC. I would also struggle with not e-mailing her too.
Also good about the DBT program. Sorry there's a wait. There always seems to be a wait for everything. This one counseling place I found I would have to wait til august 15th just for an intake. Probably won't do that, but just amazing how in demand stuff is.