I got triggered at a party on saturday and I can't remember if what I'm pissed about is real or not. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I have DID so therein lies the problem.
Why couldn't the adults in my life
1. Not emotionally abuse me
2. Not physically abuse me
3. Grandfather not sexually abuse me
4. Father not sexually abuse me
5. Mother not sexually abuse me
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
I want to throw myself on the floor and just bang and I can't because it's 114hrs and my children are in bed and my husband is in bed.
Why did I have to be triggered now?
I feel as though I'm going to vomit.
It just sucks