Wow - that does sound like a crappy week. I am horrified the doctor (I hate them by the way) was such an asshole to you. They do not get to rant at you. It is not their position or place to do so. Ranting and lecturing is not their right. There is no call for that. You do not deserve it at all. And your therapist really does not listen to you - sorry.
I hope you can start your program soon.