I liked pneumonia because I can sleep whenever I try to do so instead of my usual insomnia, nightmares etc. that I have had my whole life.

The times I have tried to view the therapist as a non-enemy, it has been worse because then when she attacks and mocks me-I have left myself open to it. But it is more that for some of us - the therapeutic parts that are supposed to be the nice ones - are not. It is not just me - the books have a category of us for whom this is the experience.