Hi can anyone help me. I know I have been missing for a while, but I have just not been doing too good. Today I went for my session and I only stayed about 20 minutes (10 of those probably mostly in silence). I could feel my face completely burning up because I thought I was going to cry. I told T that I just wanted to be dead.

Anyway Iwont bore you with the details, but eventually I just apologised and said I had to leave, which I did. I don't think I'll be going back but I feel so bad for doing this on T because really she is such a nice person and I get on great with her. I just couldn't talk. She really did try and I just couldn't do it, I really tried so hard, but I just couldn't talk. It was like I just hadn't the energy or something. I feel so bad now because I'm sure I've made her feel bad. I'm definetly not going to text her to apologise. I know she knows Im sorry.

Has this happened to anyone else?

I understand if I don't get replies, its completely stupid.

Thanks