Take a breath. You will be ok no matter what turns out to have happened. Id avoid contact with him until you sort this through. Ive been recently learning things about my past i never could have guessed, its hard, its confusingits scary but you are safe now, but id avoid contact to keep your children safe until you know for sure.

With my DID i thought i knew how bad my past was, i wrong. They hid more than i could imagine and im just starting to skim the surface. But its their job. Imagine if you knew about this as a child, if you cant handle it now, you definately couldnt then. The uncertainty is hard i know, but it was blocked for a reason, if it did happen.

But dont convince yourself it did happen just yet or you could cause false memories. Just hang in there, bring it up with t and take this slowly. You will get through this