nina.....let all the tears out...they have been a long time coming......then take a deep breath and take a good look at your life......you nina are a strong woman,a good wife and mother.....a true friend to many......we both have ocd...we know what it does to our minds......but nina sweet woman....don't complicate your life....look at the people around you who really need you and love you.....rely on them.....they are the ones who will be with you when all the others leave....i'll always be here nina....