stopdog, I almost hit the hugs button for you on the above post, but stopped myself. I am sorry that you got a mean post in response to just asking if other people ever feel the way you did. If hugs were okay with you, I would totally hug you. As it is, I'm sitting over here, on my side of the room, simply expressing my opinion that you get to ask a question without being judged, but NOT empathizing with you or anything like that.

And just to clarify what I said before, I initially did have a similar response to my T. I would get angry, upset and confused. My response was about not knowing what the price for his kindness was, and also just confusion. Why would HE be sorry about that particular thing? Or like you, what difference did it make how I felt about it? OF COURSE that was horrifying. Now what? How does acknowledging it was horrifying FIX anything. All I can say is that over the course of time, I trusted that he wasn't going to ask a price from me at all (beyond the payment for the session). I felt like I was not so alone and not such a freak when he empathized with me. So, eventually, for me the anger and fear and weirdness around the empathy subsided. I hope that eventually happens for you as well, and you can receive the kindness and caring without anger or fear.