I just wanted to post that my session with T went really really well yesterday. I made a list of the direction I wanted therapy to go, e.g. what I thought were things I wanted to work on, and read it to her.
That in itself was nerve-racking because I was afraid she would tell me it was a stupid list, or that I was wrong.

Well, we dove right in, and although there was a lot of me not knowing how to identify certain feelings, I did end up getting to cry a teensy bit in the office. (which I am really good at not crying in front of anyone...)
I felt like crap last night, but this morning, it is like some kind of weight is gone, even just a little bit. So I am actually a bit less anxious inside. Just a little. But I will take it.

I just love how even though she never hugs me or anything like that, it's like her words hug me, if that makes sense. I am glad I have a comforting place to start to slowly, maybe, let my guard down...

Thanks for listening!