SAWE, in six years of therapy with the same T, I have spoken the unspeakable many, many times. It has always left me, after the session and for a few days, feeling a little hollow and shell shocked, almost numb. Then sometimes would come feelings of remorse and shame - OMG, how could I have told him THAT!! But then eventually all those feelings would subside, and the emptiness inside of me that the unspeakable caused would chip away a little more each time I shared something with my ever compassionate, non-judgmental T. Through the past six years of therapy as the emptiness subsided, it was replaced with feelings of self worth, self compassion, self forgiveness, self love - all the things I've never experienced in my 58 years until the past year.

So I guess what I'm saying is...give it a little time for your feelings to settle. You've done something hard, something very courageous - your mind and body are in a type of shock and need time to recover. Be gentle with yourself - you'll get to that peaceful place about what you've shared. My thoughts and prayers are with you