My Life Is Meaningless
It seems the more I try to change, the more I fail...
I tried to change my life, the more I screwed things up!
So I guess I really don’t understand the meaning of life,
when the one that I love pushes away from me completely...
I see the only answer, which I will leave for speculation for now.
I guess I can never win no matter what I do - the woman I love will
never care for me as I do for her. I wish things could have turned out different
but, unfortunately reality is reality, and that is the way it is...
You know, time flows in a strange way sometimes,
you never know if your going to have to swim against the current or not
so many twists and turns... one minute your in love and the next...
To the one you care about, your bleeding heart does not even matter.
I only wish I were able to turn off my emotions like a light switch
so this suffering would not be so painful, but unfortunately I can’t
I must suffer as a martyr again...
Why is it that love means so little to others?
As time inevitably flows by so slowly, my pain just continues to grow
day after day as I exist alone in this empty world...
Why is it that I keep ending up in situations where I cause myself
this utter pain in my breaking heart? I just can not understand it and,
I will always wonder why my life is always so lonely and empty but,
most people just don’t understand my pain...
as I cry out alone.