Nina, that's not true! You're a wonderful, loving woman! Maybe you made some choices that weren't very wise, but you don't need to beat yourself up. THAT is what makes it harder, Hon. There are times in our lives that we just need to do something for OURSELVES.
Please! Don't beat yourself up!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.