(((Cowboy))),

It has not been that long since your wife's passing. The grieving process really takes time and it sounds like you are really low and experiencing depression. Have you sought help for this?

While I know you loved your wife, she would not want you to be like this. Your wife would want you to find a way to enjoy what life you have left in this world. And you may meet another woman, even a woman who lost her husband and find a way to share with yet another woman. While I know that someone else doesn't seem plausible right now, it could very well happen in your future.

Please find your way to help with this. You sound like you are experiencing some Post tramatic stress and that is very real, but you CAN get to a much better state of mind.

Hugs, and please keep coming to PC and sharing.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes