Thanks to all of you i appreciate you responding because i do feel very alone in this my bf is not supportive because i think he sympathizes with them because his family has had problems before with his sisters kids and his brothers and child services became involved. The kids didn't end up getting taken away but they were always secretive and wary of outsiders and letting people help with anything. I didn't agree with the way his family handled things and i still don't agree with the way they do things, they deny things and try to act like everythings normal too. They are secretive still and dysfunctional as can be. My family is not perfect but i was in therapy as a teenager and have been on and off ever since and i have to take meds for depression. My mom wasn't thrilled but she didn't try to argue about it she let me get the help i needed. My sisters kids have some issues they are getting help with. I see things very differently then my bf. This whole thing is causing problems between us because i expect him to be on my side and to be upset that i'm going through this and to (gasp) maybe even speak to them about it on my behalf. But he is so passive to begin with he would never do that and plus like I said he feels sorry for them. So here I am in misery basically because she just keeps escallating the level of noise and aggravation because she wants the reaction of me losing it. For the last several days I have not said very much and yes i have had my earplugs in. They are uncomfortable because i have allergies and i have fluid in one of my ears so i worry i may get an infection but i have no choice. They don't even help sometimes. She gets so loud that i can hear her anyway. And her parents sometimes make noise too. The father got up real early the other day and was banging really loud like he was working on something. It was like 730 am or something. The night before we watched a movie until 300 am and the tv was loud but at this point i don't care. I don't try to be considerate anymore like i used to because they allow her to harrass me and do nothing so i don't try to behave like a good neighbor anymore. I used to but i don't care anymore. Then I have a sound machine in the bathroom that i put on full blast either on white noise or waterfall when i go in there. She comes in of course and stomps her feet and bangs and has a fit the entire time. After i turn it off I say you don't have to hear this if you just go in another room. If you follow me in here you will hear this noise. The mother was yelling all loud one time when it was on and all 3 of them were over me, the parents arguing the child having a tantrum. I mean, i'm trying to have privacy plus give her a consequence of following me. They don't do anything. So the other day they had this loud noise i don't even know what it was but i heard it thru my earplugs. It went on for a good while in the morning. Its back and forth, tit for tat. I wouldn't even resort to doing these type of things if i didn't feel i had to. But for them to retaliate when its thier kid thats the problem is crazy. I'm sorry but the entire family needs help they are all a little off. I told my therapist i'm living in a crazy house and i don't know how long i can keep doing it. I'm seriously nearing a breakdown. Because i'm sickly, i'm unhappy with my life, There is just nothing going right at all and i don't even feel like i have a reason to be here. And i can't even have peace in my own home. I have been taking xanax, klonopin, gabapentin, benardyl and other pills to try to knock me out sometimes so i can sleep and not have to be awake. This is how much this is affecting me. And I have no idea what to do. I have been living with this for a few years and it just keeps escallating. We are not doing well financially we have no savings we live check to check. I don't work i'm on disability. My bf doesn't make much. I feel stuck and i really don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this and i can't continue to live like this. My bf and I started seeing a therapist together and she said we should talk to the landlord before we see her next. I have no idea what even to say. I wanted to write a letter but i don't know how well he reads english. Knowing them they will deny everything anyway. I really don't want to call child services because they will retaliate even moreso because they will assume i did it. I am however going to call around to some mental health places and ask their advice, ask if anyone from their culture works there and speak to them about it. I feel if someone they trust tries to tell them that its ok to get help maybe they will agree. But really the parents need help themselves. They are clueless as can be about kids period. Nevermind a kid with special needs. I don't think they were even taught manners and how to treat people with consideration and what is right and what is wrong. The mother is rude as can be. She has said things to me that were so inappropriate, she is nosy and i suspect she has come in my place when we were not there. I now have to put something in front of the door as i leave so i can tell if anyone has come in. And like i said they sit up there in silence. No radio on or anything. From the outside the house looks dark like nobody is home. Sometimes we would think they were not home and we would talk and go about our business and then out of nowhere once we finished talking you hear them start walking around and talking. They were there all the time just listening. They are strange I tell you. And I have no support except my therapist. I need to be working on other things with her but i am so stressed out that i spend the time talking about this and telling her i don't know how long i can do this. I really almost took my meds and was going to go elsewhere to take them all and be done with it. I just took enough to sleep though. Its a struggle. I don't need this. Thanks for allowing me to vent and i know you say well there is nothing you can do about it but deal with it and i know that but i still have to talk about it. I am hanging by a string, my life doesn't seem worth living. I told my bf the same thing. He gets an attitude and says well why do you have to keep talking about it we can't do anything. I told him fine don't listen but i'm telling you i'm near the end of my rope and i mean it. I don't want to scare him, well maybe i do so he'll understand the seriousness of my state of mind. Maybe he will try to figure out how the hell we are going to get out of here. I can barely function, i can't focus on anything. I have been trying to make phone calls, set up dr appts, and do laudry and other household things all week and have done nothing. Partly because i'm not physically well but also cause i can't focus. I need him to step up. I am not well and i'm falling and i need his help his support. I don't know what i'm going to do if he can't be there for me. If the both of us can't handle anything then i don't know what is going to happen.