Thread: I gave in today
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Old Jul 25, 2012, 07:44 PM
anonymous12713
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Originally Posted by stopdog View Post
I advise my court committed clients to just play the game, nod, agree, take the meds so they can get out. I tell them it is not selling out, it is realizing the hospital is not their ballpark or game or rules and the game is rigged. And then I advise them once they do get out to leave the state to get out of the system if the system is not where they want to be.
This is so sad, but this is exactly what I am finding out. It's not what I wanted to find out. The game is completely rigged. I have been told for years how "sick" I am. But my only diagnoses are PTSD and DID, confirmed by specialists. When my team heard that what I have is treatable, that's when things started getting really bad. They don't want to see me better. That's not their plan at all. That was never their plan.

Again I trusted people and again I let myself be hurt. Why do I always do this to myself?

I think I'm more sad because of the other 29 people on their case. What happens to them? I'll eventually manipulate my way out. But they won't.
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